New Perspective

I have this new perspective, Its weird because it just grew on to me based on I should say traumatic experience I guess. Growing up I couldn't understand the people who are afraid to commit, or even be in a serious relationship, and now I was agitated because now I understand. It's so weird, a lot of people are asking me... "May boyfriend ka na ba?" I keep telling them "Wala, patay na." as joke of course or sometimes when I'm sane I just say "Wala eh". Then of course they ask me... "Bakit naman?" I just smile at them and say "Ayaw ko na eh, badtrip lang sa buhay" then (wink) hahaha! There's nothing wrong with being single, At first I thought If I remained single I would prolly just die of loneliness, being without someone to take care of me and all that crappy sh*t. But then in the long run, its not bad at all... because of the reasons:

-I have no problem with loading my cellphone.
(Wala na akong paki sa text, hindi ko na kailangan mag waldas ng pang unli at hindi ko na kailangan bumili ng cellphone na isa para i-sun pa)
-I have no one to meet.
(Pest kasi, taga sta. rosa pa ako... Hindi ko ka kailangan pumunta ng e.g. Las Pinas araw araw)
-I have no one to waste my money on
(Greed... haha! lahat ng pera sakin na)
-I have no one to waste my tears on
(Wag mag sayang ng luha kung hindi naman worth it)
-I have no guilt at all.
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Because of this, I have learned that being single is not bad at all. I have pansophic understanding that being alone and facing your problems alone means that you are independent and most of all VERY STRONG. There is no reason to feel bad, time will always heal your heart or maybe you might not forget about loving that person but you can still adjust your heart to live without them. So cheer up deary.... -^__^- Life is still full of adventures.... Just waiting for you. I will always tell myself this: "I was once Inlove, but that was the last time I'll ever truly be"
This is the truth, You can never fall in love the same way twice. There is still a distinction between good love, great love and best love.
Right now I'm finding it hard to believe in love, marriage, serious relationship, men who could never be tempted.... But still a part of me is fighting to believe there is still hope for me... still don't know... right now I don't care.... The only thing I care about is I would love to see the people I love, my friends... happy with their relationships or happy in love... (As far as I know I'm the only one in my "tropa" huz not in a relationship) I would rather see them happy, dynamic, and dexterous rather than me being in a relationship. Gotta love dem biatches. And right now, I will swear with all my might that I will only love my family and my bestfriends... -^___^- peace and love y'all
BESTSONG: fifteen by taylor swift.
.chanelle♥

What happened to me?

Sorry it took me quite some time to write another blog entry, I kept my promise that I would change (back to normal) and will be busy re-creating everything I destroyed in my life. I changed everything, my lifestyle, set of friends, hobbies and interests, even philosophy. Things are getting better than I imagined, I thought my life would go to the dumpzzz but I was wrong, there is hope, and I found it through HIM, Jesus. One preaching I'll never forget is that when trials come your way, and it feels rather irredeemable, tenebrous and crestfallen never forget HIM, that's one thing HE desires. -^_^- So don't give up, don't lose hope. Just remember, everything is gonna be alright.
iChanged:
*set of friends (real ones now)
*life style (no more drinking -^_^- or anything bad)
*appearance (changed my hair, stereotype, hyperness, cheerfulness and exercised alot. I mastered, patience and understanding... finally)
*hobbies (computer adik, back to anime adiktuzz, exercise, making people laugh again.)
*interests (dancing, I can sing now don't know why, anime)
*philosophy (I WAS ONCE INLOVE... and THAT IS THE LAST TIME I WILL BE. for that person)

Apparently, the Justine I used to back before I changed is now BACK people. I don't care about them haters who keep saying that I'm hopeless, and forever will be a bad chick. Always remember that everyone is subject to change, its the only thing constant in this world. People who don't know me are illegitimate to judge or whatever. The ME i used to be, everything I did, met, have become between January 2008 to September 2009 I have already obliterated and vanquished in my memories, as part of my au courant life. Am I right? -^_^- At least I was aware of my mistakes and I admitted that I was wrong, and Im not going back to dark, even though it was so tempting and fun, you still have to pay the price and its not worth it, seriously.

--and i promise to post more blog entries before the month ends...
gomenasai minasan. -^____^-

.chanelle♥

Keys to PEACE OF MIND (from the heart)

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately... About my life, past, present and future... But then I realized, I shouldn't be worried at all. I know my life is in God's hands, I know things will be just fine and much better than before. Life has challenged me judiciously and prudently, I realized there are a lot of things I should be grateful about rather than my past or present problems, It's as simple as Count Your Blessings Darlings. I have achieved a lot of things, learned through my mistakes and met a lot of remarkable, magnanimous people along the way and gained wisdom through their teachings, I learned how to admit mistakes, LOWER PRIDE, and to think outside the box rather prejudiced by the so called CROWD MENTALITY (philo101). Sometimes, life catches me off guard, it may be because of my carelessness when God wants to voice me out something but I couldn't hear it because I was too busy minding my own business. ^^) My life before was super perfect when I say perfect, what I mean is that... You don't have to be rich, elite, liar, popular to have a so called perfect life. Material things are just ephemeral, Being Rich is nothing to boast about, first of all its not your money its you're parents. A perfect family doesn't necessarily guarantee happiness, like mine, Mine is broken But we get along just fine and we love the way we are right now. ^^) Sometimes, perfection can be found in the most SIMPLEST FORMS. Like, passing every subject, having no enemies, having a great/loyal lover, Igniting your passion... etc. Having peace of mind is PERFECTION for me, sleeping and waking up happy is what I monumentalize. Based on experience I have convoked information about having peace of mind in the spirit.

5 Keys to having PEACE OF MIND:

5. Obedience- This is very imperative. Before you become a leader in this society, you have to learn to be a good follower, obey by the rules. Start as simple as obey your parents (everything they do, they do it for your own good. Love you ma) and obey God's simple rules and all will fall right in to place.
"Obedience is the mother of success and is wedded to safety"

4. Exercise- You have to maintain a healthy and pulchritudinous figure, it add to the self esteem
" Your Body is the temple of God. Honor it well."

3. Patience- Obeying and Exercise requires one ponderous thing and that is understanding. Patience is the most challenging, grandiose of all practices. Its is having wide understanding, open minded thinking while underlying in a very arduous circumstance. To be able to be called mature you must possess this virtue.
" Patience is the companion of wisdom."

2. Optimism- being optimistic is a skill, not all people are designed to be optimists. It is the ability to over look complications and hope for a better end or beginning. Optimists generally believe that people and events are inherently good, so that most situations work out in the end for the best. This is good for the spirit and body. ^^ "Smile when it hurts the most" ^^

1. Forgiveness- The number one answer to the key to having peace of mind is having a forgiving heart. Forgiveness is not ‘letting the other person off the hook.’ Forgiveness is letting go of the emotional attachment to their behavior. Thus, when one forgives the other person one is letting go of anger... etc. Being able to forgive is one of the greatest gifts to yourself, it may not be acknowledged by others but think of it as AN ACT OF MATURITY your enemy cannot ACCEPT or even DO. ^^) I'd rather sleep soundly in the night rather than think of the person and how I'm going to ruin his/her life. No good will ever come from revenge, but with revenge the joke is only on you. ^^) Resulting to bitterness or rage can make you look like a fool. Nobody wants to be labled bitter or emo. Just stay happy, Life is a fun place! Just walk with God, It's never too late to walk in Righteousness. Love Love Love. Life is too short dearies... <3> “The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”

-Always, Live laugh and Love. These are the things I learned that's why I'm perfectly happy now. Live your life to the fullest and enjoy. Laugh with your friends, never gossip about them, laugh at your problems, smile. Love everyone, love the un-lovable, Love thy neighbors as you love thy self. I have learned to forgive and forget though I was hurt by many... Always remember that the weak cannot forgive. If God is with you who can be against you? People will say or do bad things to you, because they have nothing better to do, because you are better than them. Be an example.... Love. <3>

THE PERFECT GUY?

I wasn't really that blessed when it comes to falling in love, or finding the perfect person for me. When I was a kid, I imagined myself as a princess waiting for my prince to find me but all of that has changed, now I think that my prince charming is really here, He just took a wrong turn, got lost, and is too stubborn to ask for directions or something. At this young age, always broken, always dumped don't know why... I find it hard to accept that life isn't really a fairytale or a koreanobela. I'm really a late bloomer, and I'm picky when it comes to boys, I don't fall to easily (Infatuation fades but loves truly lasts). I used to break hearts back when I was younger, then karma hit me like a bitch. I learned to never mess with emotions and to differentiate love from infatuation. 7 years of my life I learned to only love one guy, closed opportunities for other guys, but i can't blame myself... since I never saw anyone better than that person. Mr SLM who's name appears in every third letter of my name, the guy who broke me, you know who you are ^^ I forgave you. lol. After Mr. SLM left me, I never saw anyone better than him... Yes, Edward Cullen was waaaaaaaaayyyy better than him, but he's not real, a guy who gives a Ferrari to his lover, speaks as if he is shake sphere, believes in Sex after marriage DOESN'T EXIST, took me 5 months to accept this.
Lately, I'm still am not having any good luck when it comes to finding love or love finding me, most of my friends aren't single and sometimes they shove it on my face, but its okay as long as their happy, i'll shove it on their faces when they break up. KIDDING!! it gets worst and worst every time. Different people, same situation,but the drama gets worst. I was almost to the point where I don't believe in love anymore (sorry for the drama).
I was watching my favorite show ABDC season 3, and QUEST CREW got my attention... I LOVE QUEST CREW.. the moment I saw their first dance.. my mind split, and goose bumps were all over my body, for a moment I was paralyzed in awe, their choreography was soooo sick!! Then I saw a guy whose hair reminded me of my ex Mr. SLM and I like guys with Emo like hair, but not the dirty looking ones lol ^^) I found out that the guy's name is RYANIMAY CONFERIDO and he's a Filipino... I was like wow! Then I researched about him, blogs, social accounts, videos on youtube... and I was like "OH EM GEE" ... yes "OH EM GEE" the perfect guy. These are qualities I look for in "THE PERFECT GUY" and when I say the perfect guy I mean he's better than edward cullen. Here's what I look for in "THE PERFECT GUY" when it comes to "THE THINGS HE SHOULD ACQUIRE" more on the lighter side and I think Ryan has all of them:
1. I love DANCERS!!!! (Ryan is such a egregious dancer)
2. ART lovers- That involves drawing, graphic design, painting. (like ryan)
3. MUSICIANS- also composers, song writers ( i love his piano pieces)
4. Super FUNNY, sense of humor is mandatory.
(and Ryan, despite being hilarious, his words are also very deep like his music)
5. Has Weird but Awesome hair (like Ryan's)
6. Manly (I just added this because of recent complications ^^)
7. INTELLIGENT, the almost extinct kind.
8. Has a deep and mysterious side -_-
9. Is really adorable, looks is considered one of the most important factors of course but not for me.
10. GAMER! oooh i Love video games
11. VERY SPORTY :)
12. Loves and fears God. My favorite hahaha!
-----------------I also have these qualities and I hope that I could find someone as close as Ryan or ME.
Hmm.. When it comes to *almost serious* qualities the "PERFECT GUY" he should be:
1. Sweet 2. Sensitive 3.Faithful 4.Loyal 5.Trustworthy 6.REALLY PATIENT 7. SSSUUPPPER HUMBLE 8. Caring 9. Wise 10. Hard working and dedicated 11. Did I mention Manly and not Vain? lol.
....... Right now, Im sooo single it gets lonely along the way and sometimes I stumble down and lose hope, but then I found a person close to the PERFECT GUY, and It makes me high-spirited and optimistic that a person like RYAN exists, and I know he's like one in a million and though I may not find a man as close to the qualities shown above, knowing a person like ryan that exists makes me hopeful that their kind is not yet extinct people!! ... and to that girl that won Ryan's heart... who ever you are.. I so envy YOU so much. Someday.... I'll meet my "guy" though not perfect.... still I learned that We come to love NOT by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. Right now, Mr. Ryan Conferido is my inspiration he makes me happy by making me believe, at least now I have something or someone to hold on to till the right one comes... I hope that I'd get to meet Ryan when I come back to California... I really hope so.. My fingers are crossed... hoping... someone like him would come... x_X) Wherever you are... I'll find you. ~~,)

"Acknowledge her presence, respect her privacy, and never test her patience."
-Ryanimay Conferido. (visit his site at www.ryanimay.com)

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, "thats her"....

Dedicated to THE PERSON I LOVE MOST(my bestfriend)

I promised my bestest best buddy that I'll dedicate my next blog post to him. Hmm... So here it goes... I will never forget the first time I saw David Ralph Retuya, I was one of the Bedanz's elite members, Since I didn't watch the freshie kids audition I asked one of my co-bedanz Third Natad, If there were new GOOD looking faces in our org. Third told me that there are a lot of good looking people who auditioned and got in, he told me that there was someone who looked like Richard Gutierrez, But that didn't stun me at all. (mapapaWOW lang niya ako kung sinabi niya kamukha ni WU chun, or ni KIM bum) haha! <3 id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5381756745311291826" style="WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: pointer; HEIGHT: 33px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgPzSqCEbbp4C2xrWrb_Q6e-UK6T8k_BCh2iKK0sC5dTv2URH98mEW5PNdY4YvcWr8yNXoDUCl369Ntgq2claULMLDkTTA-BUJxwK09Lub6_Ve9g0onZY7fyp4CSJF0xWVe5gDadmcTAsE/s200/Untitled-1_44-1.gif" border="0">Up to now, I don't know why we became the best of friends. He was so positive and encouraged me at my down-est moments, burned anyone who tried to destroy me, and helped me gain confidence and never failed to make me feel better about myself, I became drawn to his spirit and eventually we clicked. I loved everything about him, his weirdness despite looking good and poised made him unique, he made life like crazy for me, taught me life to the fullest, and always brightened up my day. Though he's a bit narcissistic, its what I love about him. He won't be Dave unless he doesn't have an I LOVE ME sign on his forehead. ^^ Any person would be lucky enough, no, BLESSED to be his significant other. (And kung sino man parating alam niyang dadaan muna sakin, at kung sino nandiyan niya... ehem alam mo namang pasado ka na :D)

I finally found someone whom I can be with, who accepts me for better or for worst, for rich or for poor. and will not leave though not commited ^^ but our bond is more than a commitment. That's why he deserves to be called my first hubby ever! But we don't have a “thing” people, its just that we experienced living together, and even though I had relationships during our friendship I always crawled back to MINE. ^^) It's so funny, because it never crossed my mind that I'd fall in love with him or whatever... I CONSIDER HIM AS MY BROTHER from another mother. ^^) well, we both look like foreigners anyway.

Everyday, I'm scared of loosing him. Scared of him backstabbing me, Scared of him lying to my face, just like THEM. I trust him with my whole heart but I'm still scared of trusting fully, because when the time comes that he'll hurt me, I know it will hit me harder than anyone who has tried to hurt me. I love MINE, I can't go on a day without him. Even though I'm single, its enough because Dave is enough. He's the nicest, funniest, cheerful, hottest, and bitchiest person you'll ever meet... Right now, he's number one in my heart. He's the one who's gonna last a life time. I can feel it, I'm sure of it. He's not just my bestfriend, he's FAMILY TO ME. I am scared, scared of loosing him. But I'd rather risk my feelings for our friendship, I MAY NOT HAVE FOUND THE ONE YET... But I'm sure as hell that I've FOUND MY TRUE BESTFRIEND. i love you mine.

Cheating Tips (bad) ^^

I've doing nothing productive lately, because I'm still busy doing nothing. I'm having a hard time deciding what to do in my life, but this morning I was really shocked I looked at myself in the bathroom and noticed one thing... “Im so FAT” I let myself go these past few months so much. Two months ago, I weighed 100 and now I weighed 110. Lol. I need to donate more blood, do extra work. I need to burn calories rather than burn people NOT WORTH MY TIME. Then I thought about life as a highschool student, I missed those moments, back at highschool I was queen. I owned highschool badly, everyone knew me... Janitors, Staff, I mean EVERYONE. I missed the smell of third grader's sweat, the smell of newly sharpened pencils, the smell of chalkboard.... aaaaaaahhh!!! I rocked highschool. But what I miss the most are the sneaky, devious, evil things I did without even getting caught. I was really good with cheating, not proud of it but I was good. I was the best “kodigo” maker back then, here are some tips if you wanna cheat during a test:

1. When you make a “kodigo” pass at your own risk, we have one rule for that:

   kapag nahuli ka, sayo yan, bahala ka. Pagkumanta ka bugbog ka. Tanginang bobo.
   

   (if they caught you with it, its yours bitch)

2. Absent during test dates, once the teachers check and bring back the tests ask a loyal classmate to borrow his/her checked test paper. And use it when you take the special exam which is exactly the same as the checked test paper. Genius.

3. When you're in the testing room, Sit in front. Because the teachers check the ones who are sitting at the back rather than the front.

4. Always sit beside someone whose really smart, so you can have a guaranteed answer.

5. If the test is accounting or Algebra, bring lots of paper and liquid paper!

6. If you're going to make a kodigo, stick it somewhere were they can't see it. Like your I.D, calendar pens always work.

7. If the tests are multiple choice and the choices are a, b, c and you don't know the answer... write a small letter c, because you can always change c to a and b just write a line over it when you check it.

8. Try to use G-tech ballpen 0.3 not the 0.5, so you have more space to write on your palms. And don't write on your palm if you have sweaty palm issues. Bring a hankie to hide your palm.

9. When the teacher asks you to exchange and check the paper, don't do it. Check your own paper, then add more points to your score. The teacher will say they'll double check it, but they don't really do that. Proven. *evil laugh*
   

I have lots to share when it comes to cheating exams hahah! But I might really set a bad example haha, cause its getting so sinister... But please don't try them, I was really really blessed that I was never caught cheating, and my classmates were so nice and smart to let me copy and exchange papers with them. “kapit kapit, walang kakanta kapag nahuli" was our motto, we used to work together. I remember, we had our math exam and it was sooo

fucken hard. Our proctor went away to eat, and one of my classmates who knew all the answers went to the chalkboard and started writing the answers herself, luckily we all passed the exam. Lol. Eat this Ms. Gay ,,l,,
But sometimes, when you cheat a lot, no one will believe you when you aced an exam like me I hate MATH i believe that it was only invented for torture of the mind, soul and spirit, useless. I got 73/75 on my calculus test WITHOUT CHEATING and my
classmates didn't believe me. T_T huhuhu. That test was so fucken easy common sense! ^^)

My Wacky Family.

This is stupid. I just deleted my old Blogger account cause I wanna forget everything that happened with the past, I wanna start fresh and I wanna start now. :D haha. Lately I just conquered the biggest problem that came into my life. Growing up I thought my family would have the least influence in my rebellions but then again, never thought they would be the first in my list. I have a really cool family, there are 16 of us, used to be 17 last January 2009 but my Grandmother's father died at the age of 89... Yes... My Grandmother's Father. :D It was the first time I experienced someone dying in the family, and frankly it was so painful. Before my Great Granpa died I had a dream, The dream was about me loosing all of my teeth. (weird) But according to legend, when you dream about loosing your teeth or watching them break and fall someone's going to die, and to prevent that you should bite the four edges of your pillow.(much weirder) But I didn't do that, so Grampa died. (I guess that was true?) The wake lasted for 4days, and for 4days I wasn't able to sleep, I turned into a Gambling bitch, trying to hustle all of our borders and relatives cause they were giving out dollars to the winners hahaha! But what happened to my Great Granpa brought my family members closer than ever, instead of us being sad we turned out really happy for our Great Granpa, He has lived a long fulfilling life and had passed on wisdom up to my siblings and I know he's in a better place.
Anyways, Back to my family problem. Its so funny how much I try to run away from them, they still welcome me back open arms and such. I really love them though I don't show it, My family is really crazy and I'd like you to know about them.


This is my Grandfather I call him tatay he's 70y/o, Of all the guys in my family he's the one i love the most. He's really strict, and Im his favorite "APO". He is the COOK in the family lol

This is my GrandMa, I call her nanay, age 60. She's addicted to Luxor (PSP Game. Palagi pa siya nakikipag agawan samin pagdating sa PSP) and Koreanobelas and korean movies. I keep telling her to study korean so she wont have a hard time reading the subtitles. lol.

This is my Mom, her name is Ana, age 38. She's the first child. She had me when she was just 20. She's a bit crazy, hyper and funny, I guess I got those traits from her but not the being materialistic part. :D

This is my Stupid sister Chingkit age 9, J'anne is her real name. Hmm.. I love her although I always tease and make her life miserable, haha its my Job I'm the sister. haha! She's so pretty that in her age she already has tons of boyfriends, much more than I had. :( *sob*

This is Tito raymie age 38, My kinda 3rd dad and My mom's current boyfriend. He's super funny, he reminds me of my dad, people mistake him for my real dad cuz we kinda have the same nose. I love his advices, it makes more sense than my mom's. :)

This is Bianca, age 12. She looks 18, she's taller than me. She's tito Raymie's first daughter, She loves anything that has to do with anime and computer games, she's just like me.

This is Ninna, age 10. Second daughter of Tito Raymie, she's really quiet but when she gets mad she's turns WHACKED! But i love her also.

This is Mama Abby, age 37. She's like my second mom. She's the second daughter of nanay. We often tease her as the Anorexic Bitch, haha, cause she's obsessed with getting thin. She's really the teenybopper type of person cause she still acts like a teenager, but gives really good advices. She's crazy when drunk, I love mama so much.

Papa knel, age 40. He's a really successful business man, we get free stuffs from him all the time like free lucky me noodles, and other products from his company. He like earns 2k a day i think. :D

This is my stupid ass cousin Kyle, age 15. My first kinda sibling, first son of mama aby and papa knel. Growing up I was his protector, I fought his fights and stood up for him, we always fought and I always ended up winning. And I always got him in trouble at home, Cause I pointed at him when I did wrong things, like... "he started it first!" but i was the one who started the fight haha. oh well. :D

This is Kersey, age 9. Second child of mama aby and papa knel. Since Mama was Cesarean and I was the favorite *coughs* Mama abby decided to have kersey on my birthday. LOL. she has a big forehead, i love kissing her big forehead.

Tito Alvin, he's like the prankster in the family, age 36. Third Child of Nanay and tatay. He's the one who understands me the most. He loves computer games, anime (NARUTOO!!), collecting stuff (action figures, comic books). All of my suitors love him. But i love him more!! Tito Alvin is also a great sketch artist.

Tita Alyn, Tito Alvin's wife. She's a really fun person and pretty as well. Her family owns a salon wer i get my hair done. lol.

Magnus, age 8. I love this boy so much! He's such a great dancer, and he's great when it comes to insulting people just like me! He idolizes my bestfriend JP. lol. I love to wrestle this kid.

Tita Rlyn, Age 29. The 4th and last daughter of Nanay and Tatay. I idolize her so much, she graduated at La Salle and took her masters at UP. And is now working at our church, she married a dancer in our church who is now a pastor. Talk about my dream life. haha! She's really intelligent and hardworking, and also funny and loves to mock me. Tita Rlyn is also an inspiring english teacher.


Kuya Rean, Age 27. He used to be the former leader of the G2p dance group, my dance group. And is now a Youth Pastor in New Life Alabang. He's an artsy kind of person, he's addicted to AIRSOFT. lol.

My Father's Side:

This is mama Jill, Age 75? haha! She's a Goddess. She's like madonna (Timeless). When she was young she was the prettiest girl here in sta. Rosa. I love mama jill, she's so nice to me, she's my financial supporter haha!

This is My dad, Jerric, Age 40. I love my dad, He's a collector, anime lover, gamer just like me. He's really crazy, I love being with him. He's like the coolest guy you'll ever meet. I never grew up with him, since they live at California, He's like a silly brother and a father to me. He loves to fart in my room and lock my room while I suffocate to death. =)

The coolest step mom that ever lived, Tita Kaila. She has 3 tattoos, and she was the one who influenced me with body piercings. Tita kai so cool, she's a rocker chick and a music lover, I love her so much, she's like the perfect wife for my dad. She's so understanding too.

This is Ericka, age 7. She's tita kaila and my dad's first daughter. I only spent a year with her, and I love her so much. I miss her terribly :( She's like allergic to everything, but i hope she's okay now.

Jaden, age 2. He's my first brother. I only met him once, and I couldn't take my eyes off him. He loves to smile and I hope someday I'd get to be with him and watch him grow and guide him also. Finally, I have a brother lol.

OTHERS:

This is Chingkit's dad, Tito Dondi. I haven't heard from him much these past few months but he has been a part of my life for 6 years since he was my sister's father after all. He was a father to me too.

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I DO LOVE MY FAMILY, even though we're messed up. At a young age, I learned to accept things that are just not meant to be for my family, like my mom and dad's separation, I thought to myself just as long as they're happy with their decisions then i'll support them no matter what. And their separation turned out to be a blessing for me, cause chingkit was born, jaden and ericka too. I had so many fathers and I love them so much, the more the merrier they say. =) You'll love my family, there's something weird, funny, crazy and unique about all of them combined, and now by making this blog I realized just how blessed I am just to be even part of them. How much I owe them, because of them I found inspiration again, though I'm single *ehem* and lonely *ehem* I guess I have more time for them. Blood is thicker than water, No matter what I do, where I go, I'll always run back to them, families are supposed to be like that. We're not perfect, but we're fine the way we are, we are one BIG HAPPY FAMILY.... and Im blessed... that's it. And in a few weeks there will be another addition in the family... My new sister... See you soon sis. =)