New Perspective

I have this new perspective, Its weird because it just grew on to me based on I should say traumatic experience I guess. Growing up I couldn't understand the people who are afraid to commit, or even be in a serious relationship, and now I was agitated because now I understand. It's so weird, a lot of people are asking me... "May boyfriend ka na ba?" I keep telling them "Wala, patay na." as joke of course or sometimes when I'm sane I just say "Wala eh". Then of course they ask me... "Bakit naman?" I just smile at them and say "Ayaw ko na eh, badtrip lang sa buhay" then (wink) hahaha! There's nothing wrong with being single, At first I thought If I remained single I would prolly just die of loneliness, being without someone to take care of me and all that crappy sh*t. But then in the long run, its not bad at all... because of the reasons:

-I have no problem with loading my cellphone.
(Wala na akong paki sa text, hindi ko na kailangan mag waldas ng pang unli at hindi ko na kailangan bumili ng cellphone na isa para i-sun pa)
-I have no one to meet.
(Pest kasi, taga sta. rosa pa ako... Hindi ko ka kailangan pumunta ng e.g. Las Pinas araw araw)
-I have no one to waste my money on
(Greed... haha! lahat ng pera sakin na)
-I have no one to waste my tears on
(Wag mag sayang ng luha kung hindi naman worth it)
-I have no guilt at all.
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Because of this, I have learned that being single is not bad at all. I have pansophic understanding that being alone and facing your problems alone means that you are independent and most of all VERY STRONG. There is no reason to feel bad, time will always heal your heart or maybe you might not forget about loving that person but you can still adjust your heart to live without them. So cheer up deary.... -^__^- Life is still full of adventures.... Just waiting for you. I will always tell myself this: "I was once Inlove, but that was the last time I'll ever truly be"
This is the truth, You can never fall in love the same way twice. There is still a distinction between good love, great love and best love.
Right now I'm finding it hard to believe in love, marriage, serious relationship, men who could never be tempted.... But still a part of me is fighting to believe there is still hope for me... still don't know... right now I don't care.... The only thing I care about is I would love to see the people I love, my friends... happy with their relationships or happy in love... (As far as I know I'm the only one in my "tropa" huz not in a relationship) I would rather see them happy, dynamic, and dexterous rather than me being in a relationship. Gotta love dem biatches. And right now, I will swear with all my might that I will only love my family and my bestfriends... -^___^- peace and love y'all
BESTSONG: fifteen by taylor swift.
.chanelle♥

What happened to me?

Sorry it took me quite some time to write another blog entry, I kept my promise that I would change (back to normal) and will be busy re-creating everything I destroyed in my life. I changed everything, my lifestyle, set of friends, hobbies and interests, even philosophy. Things are getting better than I imagined, I thought my life would go to the dumpzzz but I was wrong, there is hope, and I found it through HIM, Jesus. One preaching I'll never forget is that when trials come your way, and it feels rather irredeemable, tenebrous and crestfallen never forget HIM, that's one thing HE desires. -^_^- So don't give up, don't lose hope. Just remember, everything is gonna be alright.
iChanged:
*set of friends (real ones now)
*life style (no more drinking -^_^- or anything bad)
*appearance (changed my hair, stereotype, hyperness, cheerfulness and exercised alot. I mastered, patience and understanding... finally)
*hobbies (computer adik, back to anime adiktuzz, exercise, making people laugh again.)
*interests (dancing, I can sing now don't know why, anime)
*philosophy (I WAS ONCE INLOVE... and THAT IS THE LAST TIME I WILL BE. for that person)

Apparently, the Justine I used to back before I changed is now BACK people. I don't care about them haters who keep saying that I'm hopeless, and forever will be a bad chick. Always remember that everyone is subject to change, its the only thing constant in this world. People who don't know me are illegitimate to judge or whatever. The ME i used to be, everything I did, met, have become between January 2008 to September 2009 I have already obliterated and vanquished in my memories, as part of my au courant life. Am I right? -^_^- At least I was aware of my mistakes and I admitted that I was wrong, and Im not going back to dark, even though it was so tempting and fun, you still have to pay the price and its not worth it, seriously.

--and i promise to post more blog entries before the month ends...
gomenasai minasan. -^____^-

.chanelle♥