WTF? :))

sumakit ang tiyan ko dito. :)) HAHAHA! Pero this is living proof of how filipinos are prone to hypocrisy and philistinism. This is really an indocible act since soldiers are supposed to be a figure of adulation, honor and respect. This is utter degregation... but ABSOLUTELY FUNNY.  >:)
source: www.tunaynalalake.blogspot.com

How I love this song. How I miss u.

lopez tonight experience

Yesterday, I was with my Godbrother, yes Godbrother, I don't know If you guys use this term also. But me and my Godbrother Robie... we tight. haha! We we're at Warner Brother's studio and we watched lopez tonight. The set was amazing, and George lopez was so funny. He swears alot! But the real highlight of the show was this host that was paid to do all kinds of tricks like juggling while holding a ladder on his face, and also stand up comedy every break of the show. I think we wouldn't have been really entertained without this person. HAHA! I like Conan better than George lopez tho. HAHA! The audience was mostly Mexicans and whites and me and Rob we're like one of the only 5 asians there and Rob's friend Kazeen was the only black guy in the show. HAHA! That's why the host pointed out kazeem HAHA! :) But all in all it was fun. I can't believe I saw Channing Tatum there HAHA! He got sorta fat but he still was hot when he danced the salsa. UMMMM! ><,) Looking forward to watching CONAN next :p

SO YOU MIGHT THINK IM AN ATHEIST NOW.

The other night, I was looking at some stuff that I have brought over from the Philippines to maybe feel wistfulness that would make me feel better. I leaned over to look and saw old highschool pictures of my friends, letters from vince and then noticed that it was all kept in my ORANGE METAL BIBLE. I grabed my metal bible and looked at it's rusty figure. It was a gift from my Aunt Arlene and Rean on my first despedida October 2004 if I recall. Then it hit me, I realized that my bible is the oldest possession I have, I haven't read my BIBLE INNNN A LOOONNG TIME, but I remembered some memories I've had with it. If I would describe my bible I would say, its so UGLY and it smells like RUSTED METAL. And you can notice that I've already had tough times with it, it also has anime stickers all around it, a lot of highlighted verses, and name tags from my g2p friends during JESUS GENERATION wayyyy back 2005. But the best thing about my bible are the messages on the first 3 pages that were left by my family and friends 8 years ago. It made me realize alot of things had changed since 2004 and looking back It was quite a bit of a tie between being proud and being not. 

For Christians, a bible is like a personal weapon, they bring it everywhere they go, it's like the best tool that could help a fallen Christian in times of crisis. And I subconsciously brought my bible here even though I didn't want to. I had shared my times of doubts and fought with God as many times as I have fought with my mom lol, but that doesn't mean that I had forgotten everything. When I held my bible, memories just came back to me, all those services that mended my heart, those times I've served the Lord by dancing and media, and those times I've led people, times that I got to spoke infront of people, saw miracles, pray and actually be at peace in mind and spirit and most of the times I've made my Aunt Arlene so proud of me. THESE WERE THE MOST PEACEFUL  TIMES OF MY LIFE.

I opened my bible and stumbled upon this verse the first sentence I read was "THERE IS A TIME FOR EVERYTHING". And I just suddenly started to cry, cry so hard and I continued on reading.... "and a season for every activity under the heavens"
a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.

Whatever is has already been, 

   and what will be has been before; 

   and God will call the past to account

I realized that these past years that I haven't been that close to God, and most of the times I question and shun him. I always thought I was alone, doing things on my own not even talking to my family blinded by pride I chose a different path. But I wouldn't really make it here without God's help. I wouldn't be who I was without Him, I always found peace when I get to talk to Him, and read his word. Even though I'd get so mad, I just know that I LOVE GOT DEEPLY.I have lost so many things but I guess there is a season for everything. Hoping that season is over, I'm starting a new life contemplating this time is better for me, as I am trying to become better person, trying to get close to God again. I'll always be grateful to my Orange METAL bible for saving my ass everytime I draw far from God, it always has the right answers in my adversities.

WATCH THIS CLIP this was 2007 and that girl in white was ME. Never knew a year from that video, I'd be facing each and one of those challenges. I guess this play was really meant for me. :)

NEW YEAR, NEW POST, NEW LIFE.

Oh my gosh! It's almost been a year and 3 months since I lasted posted something on this blog. haha! I've been quite busy adjusting with the major changes that has happened in my life and I can't wait to write an update about everything! :) I suffered so bad in 2009 (as you can read on some of my emo posts). 2009 was like the year I hated everything and hated my life, where I learned to drink, party and get wild and all of those stuff that my bestfriend *ehem* dave taught me, the only good thing about 2009 was that I was able to meet my ADORABLE bestfriend DAVE. And up to now, still my bestbuddy. I managed to forget and move on from the past hurts including the break up of my 1st and 2nd bf that was jan 2009 and july 2009. The torment of KEVIN Retuya who two-timed me when he was courting me and lied to me about not being GAY which he IS and not having 2 boyfriends. But enough of the past, letsss gooo to the FUUUTURE! ;) I just finished redesigning my blog. And just an update I'm not in the Philippines anymore. Boo. I suck. I've been here for almost 2 months and I've been missing my other half. :(

SO IN THIS BLOG:

1.Not much drama

2. More reviews on make-up and other products

3. Movie Reviews

4. Anime Reviews

5. Something weird

6. ANYTHING.

i'll try to make my post short but succint.

k? love y'all.

Chanelle♥

New Perspective

I have this new perspective, Its weird because it just grew on to me based on I should say traumatic experience I guess. Growing up I couldn't understand the people who are afraid to commit, or even be in a serious relationship, and now I was agitated because now I understand. It's so weird, a lot of people are asking me... "May boyfriend ka na ba?" I keep telling them "Wala, patay na." as joke of course or sometimes when I'm sane I just say "Wala eh". Then of course they ask me... "Bakit naman?" I just smile at them and say "Ayaw ko na eh, badtrip lang sa buhay" then (wink) hahaha! There's nothing wrong with being single, At first I thought If I remained single I would prolly just die of loneliness, being without someone to take care of me and all that crappy sh*t. But then in the long run, its not bad at all... because of the reasons:

-I have no problem with loading my cellphone.
(Wala na akong paki sa text, hindi ko na kailangan mag waldas ng pang unli at hindi ko na kailangan bumili ng cellphone na isa para i-sun pa)
-I have no one to meet.
(Pest kasi, taga sta. rosa pa ako... Hindi ko ka kailangan pumunta ng e.g. Las Pinas araw araw)
-I have no one to waste my money on
(Greed... haha! lahat ng pera sakin na)
-I have no one to waste my tears on
(Wag mag sayang ng luha kung hindi naman worth it)
-I have no guilt at all.
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Because of this, I have learned that being single is not bad at all. I have pansophic understanding that being alone and facing your problems alone means that you are independent and most of all VERY STRONG. There is no reason to feel bad, time will always heal your heart or maybe you might not forget about loving that person but you can still adjust your heart to live without them. So cheer up deary.... -^__^- Life is still full of adventures.... Just waiting for you. I will always tell myself this: "I was once Inlove, but that was the last time I'll ever truly be"
This is the truth, You can never fall in love the same way twice. There is still a distinction between good love, great love and best love.
Right now I'm finding it hard to believe in love, marriage, serious relationship, men who could never be tempted.... But still a part of me is fighting to believe there is still hope for me... still don't know... right now I don't care.... The only thing I care about is I would love to see the people I love, my friends... happy with their relationships or happy in love... (As far as I know I'm the only one in my "tropa" huz not in a relationship) I would rather see them happy, dynamic, and dexterous rather than me being in a relationship. Gotta love dem biatches. And right now, I will swear with all my might that I will only love my family and my bestfriends... -^___^- peace and love y'all
BESTSONG: fifteen by taylor swift.
.chanelle♥

What happened to me?

Sorry it took me quite some time to write another blog entry, I kept my promise that I would change (back to normal) and will be busy re-creating everything I destroyed in my life. I changed everything, my lifestyle, set of friends, hobbies and interests, even philosophy. Things are getting better than I imagined, I thought my life would go to the dumpzzz but I was wrong, there is hope, and I found it through HIM, Jesus. One preaching I'll never forget is that when trials come your way, and it feels rather irredeemable, tenebrous and crestfallen never forget HIM, that's one thing HE desires. -^_^- So don't give up, don't lose hope. Just remember, everything is gonna be alright.
iChanged:
*set of friends (real ones now)
*life style (no more drinking -^_^- or anything bad)
*appearance (changed my hair, stereotype, hyperness, cheerfulness and exercised alot. I mastered, patience and understanding... finally)
*hobbies (computer adik, back to anime adiktuzz, exercise, making people laugh again.)
*interests (dancing, I can sing now don't know why, anime)
*philosophy (I WAS ONCE INLOVE... and THAT IS THE LAST TIME I WILL BE. for that person)

Apparently, the Justine I used to back before I changed is now BACK people. I don't care about them haters who keep saying that I'm hopeless, and forever will be a bad chick. Always remember that everyone is subject to change, its the only thing constant in this world. People who don't know me are illegitimate to judge or whatever. The ME i used to be, everything I did, met, have become between January 2008 to September 2009 I have already obliterated and vanquished in my memories, as part of my au courant life. Am I right? -^_^- At least I was aware of my mistakes and I admitted that I was wrong, and Im not going back to dark, even though it was so tempting and fun, you still have to pay the price and its not worth it, seriously.

--and i promise to post more blog entries before the month ends...
gomenasai minasan. -^____^-

.chanelle♥